How To Forget Your Ex When EVERYTHING Around Reminds You Of Your Ex
July 3, 2010 by Persha Davis
Filed under Break up recovery
After my recent break up, I had a hard time trying to forget my ex (perhaps, you are also having a tough time trying to forget your ex). Initially, it was difficult even to just wake up and roll out of bed in the morning. When I finally managed to drag myself to go to work, I left the car radio off, because every song seemed like painful reminder of him. It didn’t stop there, I couldn’t bear to eat at the same restaurants we went together, I couldn’t …. The endless list continues…
They say that time heals all wounds but all it’s done so far is give me more time to think about how much I miss you.~Elizabeth Wilder
Yes, the first few days after a break up, you will be able to relate to Elizabeth Wilder feelings! However, eventually, you will forget your ex but.. YOU NEED TO MAKE AN EFFORT ON YOUR PART to make it happen.
Forget your ex
1. Accept that the relationship is over
You will never be able to move on after a break up if you still cling to the possibility of getting back with your ex. Don’t dwell too much on the past and learn to accept that it’s over. You forget your ex if you are in the proper frame of mind. Focus on what you can do to become a better person without your ex by your side.
2. Refrain from reliving moments
If there was a special place you went together, you had a special song or anything else that will trigger happier moments, AVOID it. This is one of the most important steps in trying to erase those memories of your ex.
3. Get rid of the mementos
Photos, gifts and other mementos are reminders of the time you spent as a couple. Keeping photos of your ex all around the house will just cause you to pine away for them. It will prolong your efforts to forget your ex and may cause you to regret the breakup. Do yourself a favor and put them away.
4. Change Your Surroundings
I understand that there is a limit to which you can change your surroundings. But there are simple things like rearranging your room, getting new bed sheets, putting up a new painting or poster you can do. This will help you feel like you are moving forward and moving on.
Also, a temporary change of scenery was also effective. I took a couple of days leave from work, and went to my sister’s for a short stay.
5. Delete your ex’s number from your phone.
You won’t be able to forget your ex, as long as you keep in touch with your ex. Try to avoid contact with your ex, at least the initial few weeks following the break up. So, delete the phone numbers, and other online traces of your ex and make a clean break.
If you are finding it difficult to stay of the phone read my previous post Resist The Urge To Call Your Ex
6. Keep yourself occupied
If your mind is idle, it could lead you to unwanted images or feelings. So it is important to keep yourself busy when you are trying to forget your ex. Try physical activities, some sport, go to the gym, go swimming, go jogging, just walk or do something that you enjoy, but couldn’t do when your ex was around! Here are more ideas to on ways to keep you busy after a break up.
Any ideas you can contribute to forget your ex?
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I reed and reed, nothing seems to be helpfull. We left eachother for over 3 years and Im still here in the same hole!! Can’t get out of it.
I have friends, wonderfull daughter and family, I’m ok beutiful, well educated, I have everything. Tried sports, party, out with friends, good time with my daugther, etc. I’m still dreaming of him after all 3 years. Everytime I wake up of dreaming of him, I cry and get unhappy. Nothing helps…
My boyfriend just broke up with me this afternoon for family reasons. my friends and i cant even piece together what made him do it, it was completely unexpected. a few later he messages me talking as if nothing happened and we were just friends, and tells me how all these girls are going after him already and how he will wait 2 week at the very least; when he already told me it would take him a few months to gather himself. its hard for me to even begin to forget him when hes trying to strike up a conversation. what am i suppose to do!?
Friends, remember one thing. We are the people who are facing a hard time of our life to getting over a break up. But dont let your self feel that you are looser.
Love yourself. You will love again. You will find a better one. I am also in a state of forgetting her. I will do it. Just realize what are the reasons that you got in trouble with your relationship. When we will reason on it. Our mind will be in better condition to get awareness. We are sensitive. We have emotions. We will love again. And some one will come to take us away from all these things. I am hopeful.
Smile. Have a deep breath. Watch the mirror. Enjoy your every happy moment. Just forget that girl. Dont abuse. Only dont let your mind think of her.
You know, now you got the chance to improve yourself on more deeper levels. You had a breakup does not mean you are not capable or you have deficiencies. My point is, you just got enough time for yourself now.
Feel dignity in yourself. Smell your beauty. Help others. Believe me some one is there who need you. Some one is there who will not ignore you. Some one is there who will enjoy the every tiny moment with you.
I also came to this article by googling the same phrase. That how to forget your ex. But after reading the comments from readers. I believe my pain is shorter. Dont worry friends. We are coming back in action. Just build a shell of happiness around you. Dont let your life to become a jungle. Make it a garden. Organize it. I dont want people put finger on you that you are a loser. No.
Start from today.
May God bless us. Ameen.
My girlfriend dumped me last week. I was as strong (no emotions) as a stone but she changed me into cotton, which is now burning. I wanna go back to be the same person i was but I am not able to. Everything that’s around me has a memory about her, every damn thing. I always preferred to be lonely to be lost in my own dream world, but she changed me totally. I have never felt lonely even in most lonely situation but now I am soooo soooo alone. I am not able to concentrate on my job, family, friends etc etc. I am lost and flipped. The only mistake I did was to trust one person in my life. NEVER FALL IN LOVE because its very very very very painful.
Me and my boyfriend of two years split up a few days ago because he took me for granted. I wasn’t happy with that fact that he didn’t put no effort in the relationship, while I treated him like a king. I love him to death, but yet I realize that if it’s meant to be, it will work out. Guys, it’s hard, but you have to be strong. If they love you, they will come back to fight for you, if not, you will find someone better. God works in mysterious ways and when you least expect it, someone will steal your heart away and you will love again. Just love yourself enough to know that you are beautiful and worth more than the way they treated you. He was my first love, but I am still young(20). Smile and be happy because there are many fishes in the sea. Smile guys, I understand your pain. Be strong. Much love to all of you, and hopefully I continue being optimistic like this.
Its hard to forget abt sum1 u once cared abt bt when he treats u lyk a nobody my ex made it his efort 2 tell me that I’m noting I luvd him an if only he knew how. Much I care bt its 2 bad becoz its over now I had to let him go it hurt becoz the a still tyms wen I find my self tinking abt him an I hate it becoz he doesint deserve me or my tym
My boyfriend initially dumped me 6 months ago, via text when he was angry with me! Within 2 weeks we were seeing each other again, but we didn’t define our relationship, once again he dumps me by text and tells me that its not what he wants and he doesnt know if he ever loved me. I vowed that I was going to move on and not be taken in again, but last weekend he contacted me and said he wanted to see me, we ended up having sex. When I was leaving he told me that it was the last time and it can’t happen again, as if he was doing me a favour. He hasn’t spoken to me since. Although I have tried to contact him, my friends say that he is like a drug to me and he’ll keep doing this. I just don’t know how to move on and panic when I think of a life without him
I have supressed this feeling for a month now, not because I wanted to punish myself more by hiding it but for the simple reason that I don’t want any of my friends and family members know how much I am hurting. I ended our relationship because he has asked for so many chances yet he just can’t stop from cheating on me. Until such time that he even admitted he could not stop it. I have not cried about this because I know he is not worth a tear anymore. But somehow it felt like there is a dagger deep within me. I tried to be strong up to the point that I laugh at someone else’s joke even if I didn’t understand a single thing. I tried to work but I just keep on committing mistakes and I don’t remember the last good word I heard from someone. Yes, I am slowly falling on that quicksand without anyone knowing. I prayed to God but somehow I don’t know what to say anymore. And even afraid that everytime I would have a positive outlook something would go wrong again. Maybe these are all happening to me because I had put so much hope that he would change and that there is still goodness in him. But there is none.
Thando and letting go. Thank you for some.encouraging words.. i also broke up last july 18 2011 and it still hurts especially when i think il get to see him with someone. We broke up.bcoz we kept fyting bcoz (like letting go) he doesnt give me that importance. He keeps forgetting my request, the food i cook for.him etc. Anyway thank you… for some.encouragibg words coz i tent to blame myself for maybe i was expecting more… but i guess a woman should be cherished. And if they didnt care.enough to provide your needs whole heartedly then screw it. Someday God will provide a man who knows every need we need and will be motivated to adress those needs just bcoz he feels happy making us happy..:-)
My boyfriend goes to school in West Virginia…We have been on and off for 3 years. We have been through everything together. When I went up to stay with him for five days over Halloween, everything turned wrong. We could not stop fighting to save our lives. Our relationship has always been perfect, no fights, trust beyond imaginable, then whole nine yards. The last day I was there I said “maybe we shouldn’t do this, I don’t feel like you want to” and I was expecting him to say “OH NO, i love you dadadada.” That’s not what happened. He told me that I might be right, and from there there was no going back. I cried for five hours and then decided to come home early. He was upset but he said “Right now i’m off track and i’m not treating you the way that I should be.” When I was leaving he turned around and got sick, that’s how he is. He won’t cry, but he can get so worked up that he gets sick. It has now been about two weeks and I was so shattered that my doctor had to put me on Valium and i’m now in therapy. I work and try to stay busy. Last night I went out with a guy from my work, he kissed me and although there might be a baby crush there, i know i am just trying to fill my void because this guy from my work is not nearly my type. I don’t know what i’m doing. This guy is coming in from West Virginia this Friday for Thanksgiving break. We talk every other day just about, but it’s always light conversation with no meaning. The other day I asked him why we didn’t talk about anything when we did talk and he really had no answer…He asked me what I wanted to talk about. He says he wants to “fix himself,” but I can’t help but think its an excuse. I feel like i have done everything to keep my mind off of this entire thing, but I feel like i’m falling apart. Everything around me reminds me of him, I have removed all pictures, letters, flowers, etc. but nothing helps. I deleted his number and all. I’ve even deleted my facebook which was nearly my life when i had nothing else to do. I feel like nothing will ever make me happy again. When he comes in town this friday i’m scared that I might not even see him for the 10 days he will be in. When things fell apart he was like “I want to fix things, we might fix them by Christmas if not Thanksgiving.” I just feel like now he is making no effort in making anything work. He is so wrapped up in his friends that it’s all that he ever wants to do. We used to do everything together, we basically lived together and now all he does is hang out with his friends. I am scared that we will never fix things. If he comes in for this break and I don’t see him I don’t even know what i’ll begin to imagine, or if we don’t fix things. I never imagined things not working out and I never imagined this kind of hurt. I wrote him a letter explaining everything and he never said a word about it, I think he’s scared to. Having a love for someone is the most beautiful, yet hurtful thing I think that I have ever been through. Although I know i’m wrong, I feel like i’m the only person that has ever gone through it and like nobody understands. All I want is for him to say “I love you and things are fixed.” I want somebody to tell me that’s what’s going to happen, only I can’t ask that from anybody. Any advice? I love my therapist, but she just listens I feel like.
huh…its realy painfull to forget ur loved one…bt i hv to…he still love me bt i can’t backup…bt fr this reasn he deactivte his accont n cell num ..bt i pray n wish to GOD tht he will get the bestest one fr him..though i wsn’t his tht one..:( plss GOD make himm happy with his destine…plzzzz.. :’(…u’r in my every pray..boy…
I recently ended a relationship of 8 months and i must say it was the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do. Like most of you here, i also was unappreciated. The reason it was so hard to leave was because before any feelings popped up this guy was my best friend. I loved him with everything in me and i still do. I find myself sad and depressed all the time with no motivation to do anything. How do you move on when you’ve planned your future with this person? I’ve taken down everything from him and deleted all ties, but one thing i can never take off are the memories we made. Yes, i was unappreciated and we fought every other day but this guy never cheated on me, never laid a hand on me, or ever lied to me. Did i make a mistake? Or do i too deserve to feel loved? I am just another Broken Hearted Girl. . .
thank you so much T. I googled this cite because of a pain. but after reading what T wrote, i feel much better, i have so much love but my boyfriend of 9 years i finally broke up with him. my pain is everything i built it on my mind.
as much i miss the idea of me and him, there was a reason why i was not happy, and that some how helps me to stik to this breakup thing. sometimes i wanna call him like today but thanks God i did not. i wanna be loved and he could not and there is someone out there for me, and i dont wanna hate him (its hard thoughh) but i am working on that. i just wanna wake up one day and dont remember anything about him. i dont wanna see him anywhere. whats so hard we had the same friends and its dfcult for them not to talk abt him even thought it hurts but i dont show. i just wanna run away from this town. start life somewhere new. fin new love.
I once had a best friend, I always used to ask my self whether I was inlove with her or I just love her as a close friend. But after sometime. I dreamt about us together and then I suddenly woke up dying without her, so I was afraid to lose her by asking if she could be my girlfriend, after I did she accepted. This girl was the best in my eyes, she’s gorgeous, and kind. I promised myself that I’m gonna do my best just to help her with her family problems and issues, and eventhough whe was outside the country and its gonna take her about 9 months for me to see her, but still I wanted to love her. When I asked her, she accepted. And I could swear I was the happiest person alive after hearing it. We fought a lot about her parents and school and a lot of stuff. But after those 9 months she finally came back, she visited me, we had a lot of joyful times and romantic ones, all people used to tell us we’re meant to be togther. But after she traveled we both got so hurt for the way we were going to suffer again. But after that she suddenly changed she kept on hurting me and disrespecting me and avoid me, I was so hurt we broke up a lot of times, until I decided that breaking up is the best solution, but I was so so hurt, I couldn’t believe it, I keep on crying for what happened, coz I didn’t do anything wrong :S but your comments guys really inspired me to look more into life, eventhough its really hard to forget her but I will, eventhough everything is reminding of her, 15 months aren’t easy to forget but I have no choice. Good luck everyone and remember that life goes on.
I broke up with him because his not worthy to me. I love him so much that i gave everything he wants but i need to let go coz it’s not right. I’m so stupid but i love him… i love him… i love him until now. It’s difficult to heal and fix myself. The pain was eternal for me coz his the only man i ever loved. I always think of him and wondering what his life right now even he did not loved me. The best weapon that i used to keep strong is PRAYERS TO GOD.
I WANT TO START OFF MY TELLING YOU GUYS A LITTLE ABOUT MYSELF. I DIDNT HAVE THE GREATS CHILDHOOD. I WAS PHYSICALLY MOLESTED BY MY OWN FATHER AND PHYSICALLY ABUSED AT THE AGE OF 10 OR 11. MY MOTHER HAD LEFT US AND SHE HAD MOVED OUT TO LIVE WITH HER NEW BOYFRIEND AND TO GET AWAY FROM MY DAD WHO USE TO BEAT HER UP. SHE ALSO PHYSICALLY ABUSED ME. MY BROTHER AND I WERE TAKIN TO A GROUP HOME FOR ONE NIGHT AND THEY FOUND US A LADY WHO WAS WILLINGI TO TAKE MY BROTHER AND I. WE LIVED WITH HER FOR A MONTH. SHE WAS NICE. EVENTUALLY MY MOTHER TOOK US IN AND YADDA YADDA. NOW TO THE THE REASON WHY IM LEAVING THIS LONG COMMENT AND ASKING FOR ADVICE: SO I MET THIS GIRL AND FELL FOR HER THE FIRST TIME I MET HER. THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE I RATHERED DO THEN TO FIND AN EXCUSE JUST TO SEE HER. THESE FEELING WERE ALL NEW TO ME SINCE I HAVE ALWAYS LIKED BOYS. WE STARTED TO HANGOUT MORE AND MORE AND I HAD HEARD THAT SHE LIKED GIRLS AS WELL..WHICH GOT ME SUPER EXCITED. SHE INTRODUCED ME TO ALL HER FRIENDS AND WHAT NOT..LOVED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. IT WASNT TILL ONE NITE SHE WAS DRINKING FOR ONE OF HER FRIENDS BIRTHDAYS AND GOT BEHIND THE WHEEL. I DIDNT KNO HOW TO DRIVE AT THE TIME AND HAD NO MONEY. SO I TOLD HER TO DRIVE SLOW. FOR OUR LUCK THE COPS PULLED US OVER. THEY ASKED HER TO BLOW THE BREATHELIZER AND SHE WAS ARRESTED. MY HEART WAS BROKEN TO SEE HER ARRESTED. SHE ASKED ME NOT TO CALL HER DAD AND I PROMISED HER THAT I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO TAKE HER OUT. WHICH I DID. SHE CAME AND STAYED WITH ME AT MY HOUSE AND HAD PROBLEMS GETTING BACK AND FORTH FROM HER HOUSE TO WORK. SO I SUGGESTED FOR HER TO LIVE WITH ME. I WAS EXTREMELY HAPPY TO SEE HER MOVE IN WITH ME.AT THAT MOMENT I HAD PROBLEMS PAYING RENT AND IT WAS LIKE GOD SENT ME AN ANGEL. EVERYDAY TILL THIS MOMENT AS I WRITE THIS I LOVE HER MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY. SHE ASKED ME OUT EVENTUALLY. I HAD TO TELL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY ABOUT HER. IT WAS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE DONE. MY MOM WHO I DIDNT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP AT THE MOMENT HAD WANTED TO MEET ANY OF MY BOYFRIENDS AND WORST TO FIND OUT HER DAUGHTER WAS A LESBIAN..I THOUGHT SHE WOULD HAVE A HEART ATTACK. I CALLED HER AND ASKED HER TO SIT DOWN. THE WORDS CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH AND SHE ASKED ME IF I LOVED HER AND I SAID WHITH ALL MY HEART. SHE PAUSED FOR A MOMENT AND SAID OK. OKEY? OMG MY MOM WAS ALRIGHT WITH THE NEWS I HAD JUST TOLD HER. I ASKED HER TO MEET HER. SHE AGREED. AND THIS WAS EVEN A BIGGER SHOCK FOR ME. ANYWAYS MY MOM ENDED UP FALLING IN LOVE WITH HER SHE SAW HOW HAPPY SHE MADE ME. AND I WAS THANKFUL THAT SHE STARTED TO ACCEPT HER. I WAS HAPPY. ALL OF A SUDDEN IT WASNT TILL 9 MONTHS INTO THE RELATIONSHIP THAT SHE BEGAN TALKING TO THIS GIRL WHO WAS MARRIED (SECRETLY A LESBIAN)THEY SPOKE ALL THE TIME AND I NOTICED THE WAY MY GF STARTED TO TREAT ME. SHE WOULDNT WANNA KISS ME OR TOUCH ME. EVERYTHING I DID OR SAID BOTHERED HER. SHE MADE ME FEEL LIKE THE BIGGEST PICE OF SHIT. HERE I WAS THINKING WHAT I DID WRONG. I FINALLY FOUND AN OPPOURTUNITY TO LOOK INTO HER PHONE. I READ THEIR CONVERSATION. MY HEART SANKED INTO MY STOMACH. IF FELT I COULDNT BREATH, I FELT GUILTY, I FELT BETRAYED, I FELT ANGRY ALL THESE FEELING I HAD NEVER FELT AT THE SAME TIME WAS HAPPENING TO ME. THEY HAD KISSED AND HAD SEEN EACH OTHER A COUPLE TIMES. MY WORLD CAME TUMBELING DOWN. WE BOTH SPOKE ABOUT IT AND SHE APOLOGIZED AND AGREED NOT TO DO IT AGAIN. I BELIVED HER. EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT IN MY EYES. WE HAD A COUPLE FIGHTS HERE AND THEIR BUT WHO DOESNT? SHE MADE ME FEEL THINGS I HAD NEVER FELT B4 WITH ANYONE. I KNEW THAT SHE WAS THE GIRL I WANTED TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH. DESPITE ALL THE THINGS MY FRIENDS AND HER FRIENDS ADVICED ME. I KNEW PPL MADE MISTAKES. COUPLE MONTHS AFTER HER DAD GOT ARRESTED FOR THE 8TH TIME FOR DWI. YOU SEE, SHE HAD LOST HER MOM AT THE AGE OF 16. THE MOST CRUCTIAL AGE FOR A TEEN. SHE HAD DIED OF BREAST CANCER. WE SPOKE ABOUT HER ALL THE TIME. I SOMETIMES MADE HER TALK TO HER MOM BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT HER TO FORGET ALL THE GOOD TIMES THEY HAD. AND AT THIS TIME SHE DIDNT WANT TO SPEAK TO HER DAD. WHICH I ADVICED HER TO DO AND SHE DID. ONE THING I WANNA ADD HERE WHICH IS STRANGE TO ME IS THAT I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HER MOTHER. SHE WAS WEARING WHITE AND RED LIPSTICK SHORT CURLY HAIR. SHE PUT HER HAND ON MY SHOULDER FROM BEHIND AND TOLD ME EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK. IN MY DREAM I WAS SITTING ON THE EDGE OF MY BED WATCHING MY GF SLEEP. ANYWAYS BACK TO THE STORY. SHE ONCE AGAIN NEEDED MY HELP AND WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT I DECIDED TO MOVE IN WITH HER AT HER DADS HOUSE TO HELP HER TAKE CARE OF HER 2 BROTHERS. POOR KIDS THEY HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH. I DID EVERYTHING I COULD TO MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER. HOWEVER I WAS SO MAD AT HER DAD FOR DOING WHAT HE DID. YOU SEE MY GIRLFRIEND SHE IS THE SMARTEST GIRL OUT THERE AND SHE WANTED TO PERSUE HER DREAM OF BECOMING A POLICE OFFICER. SHE IS 26 SO THIS IS HER CHANCE TO DO WATEVER SHE CAN. BUT, NOW SHE HAD TO TAKE THE REASPONSABILTY OF HER TWO BROTHERS. WHICH I COMPLETELY UNDERSTOOD. I CLEANED AND COOKED EVERYDAY FOR ABOUT TWO WEEKS. HER DAD WAS REALEASED ON BAIL. I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM COME HOME FOR CHRISTMAS. TO SEE MY GIRLFRIEND SMILE. IT WAS THE GREATEST FEELING IN THE WORLD. HOWEVER I FELT A LITTLE OUT OF PLACE. HER DAD WAS HOME NO ONE NEEDED ME ANYMORE. SO I JUST STAYED IN MY ROOM. COUPLE MONTHS WENT BY AND YET AGAIN EVERYTHING WAS GREAT. AT LEAST I THOUGHT. I BEGUN TO SEE THE SAME PATTERN WITH HER. SHE WAS DISTANT AND COLD BUT THIS TIME SHE REALLY WAS MEAN TO ME. IT KILLED ME INSIDE. I DIDNT KNO WHAT I HAD DONE TO MAKE HER TREAT ME THIS WAY. I NOTICED THAT SHE WOULD SLEEP IN HER BROTHERS ROOM OR HER DADS. THAT WAS WEIRD. BUT I HAD ALSO NOTICED SHE HAD BEEN TALKING TO THIS GIRL FOR 9 DAYS NON STOP 24/7. I KNEW DEEP DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF ME THAT SHE WAS CHEATING AGAIN. I ASKED HER STRAIGHT OUT AND SHE CALLED ME CRAYZY AND THAT SHE WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON ME AGAIN. I KINDA DIDNT BELIEVE HER. ONE NIGHT SHE FELL ASLEEP. EARLIER THAT DAY I HAD SEEN SOMETHING I WANTED TO GET HER ONLINE SO I WANTED TO TRANSFER MONEY FROM HER ACCOUNT TO MINE. YOU SEE I JUST HAD BOUGHT A CAR AND I ONLY HAD ABOUT $30 TO MY NAME. I WENT IN HER WALLET AND FOUND TO BUSINEES CARDS WITH A GIRLS NAME..BUT I THOUGHT THIS GIRL WHO SAID WAS HER FRIEND WAS NAMED JASMINE. THAT WAS WEIRD. (FORGOT TO MENTION THAT ABOUT 3 DAYS BEFORE THIS NITE..WHILE IN HER CAR SHE TOLD ME SHE WENT TO VISIT THIS SO CALLED FRIEND AND SHE HAD GIVEN MY GF COOKIES IN A JAR. WE PICKED UP MY MOM AND WE ALL ATE THIS WONDERFUL AND DELICIOUS COOKIES) I SAW HER PHONE LITE UP THIS GIRL WAS CALLING HER AGAIN. I BROKE INTO HER PHONE AND READ THEIR CONVERSATION. THEY CALLED EACHOTHER BABE AND THAT THEY COULDNT WAIT TO GO AWAY TOGHETHER. AND MY GF OFFERED TO PAY FOR THE HOTEL. I STARTED TO CRY. I THREW THE PHONE AT HER WHILE SHE WAS SLEEPING. WE GOT INTO A FIGHT AND SHE BROKE UP WTIH ME. SHE CONFESSED TO KISSING HER AND SEEING HER ABOUT 4 TIMES AND TOLD ME SHE WAS NOTHING. THAT SHE WAS CONFUSED. AND THAT SHE LOVED ME AND WANTED TO WORK THINGS OUT. I WANNA TELL U GUYS HOW I FEEL ABOUT THIS GIRL. I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART I CHANGED MY LIFE TO ACCOMIDATE TO HERS. I LOVE HER FAMILY AND HER FRIENDS. I HAVE NO MONEY BECAUSE I BOUGHT A CAR AND NOW I HAVE NOTHING. I CANT TELL ANYONE ABOUT OUR BREAK UP BECAUSE SHE ASKED ME NOT TO. WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? I KNOW SHE IS THE ONE FOR ME I CAN FEEL IT. SO Y DID SHE HAVE TO HURT ME AGAIN. ALL I DO IS CRY AND CRY. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HER. SHE SAID SHE NEEDS TIME. BUT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? IS SHE GOING TO GO OUT AND MEET NEW GIRLS OR GUYS AND HOOK WITH THEM AND DATE THEM? OR IS SHE GOING TO CONTINUE SEEING THIS GIRL WHO SHE CHEATED ON ME WITH? WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WAIT AND SEE IF SHE REALIZES THAT SHE WANTS TO BE WITH ME BY EXPERIMENTING WITH HER FEELINGS? I CANT EVEN BARE THE THOUGHT OF HER KISSING SOMEONE ELSE. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY ME? HAVENT I GONE THROUGH ALOT ALREADY? AM I AN EXPERIMENT TO EVERYBODYS PROBLEMS? I ALSO WANNA BE HAPPY. WHEN IS IT GOING TO BE MY TURN? HOW IS IT THAT I STILL LOVE THIS GIRL WHO PUT ME THROUGH HELL TWICE? HOW CAN I FORGET HER? HOW CAN I FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH HER FAMILY? WOULD THEY EVEN CARE NOT TO SEE ME ANYMORE? HOW AM I GOING TO BE ALONE IN THIS WORLD AGAIN? WEN I LOST THE ONE PERSON WHO I HAVE TRUELY EVER LOVED WITH ALL MY HEART. VALENTINES IS ALMOST HERE..HOUR TRIP TO FLORIDA..OUR ANNIVERSARY…MY 25TH BIRTHDAY. I FEEL DEPRESSED AND NOW I HATE FEBURARY BECAUSE IN FEBUARY I LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I DONT EVEN WANNA CELEBRATE MY BDAY ANYMORE. CUZ WITHOUT HER I CANT LIVE. SHE WAS MY REASON TO WAKING UP EVERYMORNING. THE REASON I WANTED TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. SHE TOUGHT ME HOW TO DRIVE. SHE TOUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE. AS I WRITE THIS LETTER SHE IS ON HER WAY BACK FROM MASSACHUSETTS. SHE WENT TO RESGISTER MY CAR WITH A MYSTERIOUS SOMEONE WHICH I HAVE NO DOUBT ITS THAT SAME GIRL SHE CHEATED ON ME WITH. WHY MUST SHE BE SHADDY AFTER EVERYTHING. I GUESS NICE PPLE DO FINSIH LAST. IM THINKING ABOUT QUITING MY JOB AND GOING BACK TO MY COUNTRY. I NEED TO FORGET HER. WHICH I THINK ITS IMPOSSIBLE. IF I GO BACK TO WORK IM GONNA F*UP MY JOB CUZ IM GOING TO WANT TO TEXT AND SEE WAT SHE IS DOING. AND MOST LIKELY GET FIRED. SO IF I LEAVE ON GOOD TERMS..WHO KNOWS MAYBE AFTER NOT SEEING HER AND FORGETTING HER I CAN START FRESH. IT JUST HURTS THINKING OF NOT HAVING HER IM MY LIFE. I GUESS EVERYONE WHISHES THEIR OTHER HALF WOULD WAKE UP AND REALIZE THEY R MAKING A MISTAKE..BUT ITS ONLY A MISTAKE TO ME BUT FOR HER IT MIGHT BE WHAT SHE WANTS. SIGH..LIFE CANT GET ANY WORSE. IM GONNA LOSE IN TOUCH WITH HER MY FRIENDS AND THE WORST OF ALL MY BROTHER WHO I JUST STARTED TO TALK TO..ALL BECAUSE OF THIS..WHICH SOUNDS REDICULUS FOR ME TO SAY BUT EVERYTHING, EVERYWHERE AND EVERYBODY REMINDS ME OF HER. I WONDER IF SHE EVEN CARES ABOUT ME…BECAUSE SHE HAS IGNORED MOST TEXTS AND PHONE CALLS. BUT SHE CLAIMS THAT SHE WILL BE THERE FOR ME AND LOVES ME. SIGH. I HAVE BEEN CRYING AND HAVING NITEMARES FOR THE LAST TWO NIGHTS. I VOMITED 4 TIMES. SHE SHOULD BE HOME SOON AND IM EXCITED…YES I SAID IT EXCITED..EVEN THOUGH ITS WRONG. AFTER ALL SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. BUT IM NOT HERS. AND I HAVE TO REALIZE THIS..YES I KNOW. FEBUARY IS THE WORST MONTH. O YEA AND WE GOT THIS INFINITY SIGN TATOO ON OUR WRIST. I HAVE BEEN STARING AT IT. I NEED TO GET RID OF IT. IT MAKES ME SAD. I DONT WANNA FALL IN LOVE WITH ANYONE ELSE. I JUST WANNA “CRAWL IN A HOLE” LIKE SHE ONCE TOLD ME AND STAY THERE TILL IT MY TIME. SHOULD I BECOME A NUN? THOSE FEMALES DONT EVEN HAVE SEX OR GET MARRIED. PLUS THEY R ALL OLDER. AFTER ALL I DO HAVE A GOOD HEART AND I COULD LEARN TO LOVE GOD. HOW HARD CAN IT BE? BETTER YET. ILL JOIN THE ARMY…ITS PERFECT I GET TO GO AWAY..ALL THE TIME..ILL JUST CONCENTRATE ON STYIN ALIVE AND NOT WORRYING ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE.